Joyful Yule everybody!, eh at least in one way or another. its been sometime since i actually wrote anything on this website and good lord the cobwebs are everywhere.

having a website is really a commitment, and i definitely not yet commited to it, eventhough i plan to move my hosting from neocities to a selfhost with my own domain and such. and yet, i even forgot that i was meant to keep updating the thing that i need to update. i promised daily update and delivered... nothing.

haa~ anyway, lets have a little life update

in a way or another, life been good

I have been through things, for sure, this year has not been easy...

work-related tiredness and depression, cutting relations to someone that i dear a lot... dissapointment on my birthday... its... a series of unfortunate events that getting more and more hard to deal with. but little by little i manage to break it down into something that i can manage, and it really helps

it took me a while, it took me a long while to recover, there are days where i just feels hurt and wounded, that i just consider those days as lost. and its not that infrequent of me to do that, fortunately i have the ability to just pick things up and work on them as soon as i'm able to. its a bit of a blessing honestly, despite the long hours that i ends up dealing because it was meant to be worked for like, three to four days crammed into often be one day or one night even. its.. really not healthy and i really don't want anyone have to go through this... yes you reader, don't copy this.

Despite so; i manage to find myself in peace. it's something that seems to be growingly difficult for one or anyone to find themselves into, with so many distractions and informations coming from many places, especially within the internet.

there is one time that i find funny and interesting, because my friend asked me when we just have a chat, that there's large drama on twitter(x) in vtubing circle. and i answered right away;

with my deepest greatest joy, i have no idea what you are talking about.

because it is indeed, with great joy, ever since that day i have stopped caring peoples screaming at each other by text, my life has been peaceful. ignorance is indeed a bliss, as long as you can still see how far they causes problem to you, in a way or another. so, be ignorant, but stay vigilant. which sounds like oxymoron now that i think about it.

Missed the date

and as i write this post, i am actually fallen ill on the yule night. how stellar. it took me until new year for me to recover but even then i'm still a bit snuffy and coughing a bit.

so, what should be published on the 25th, ends up published in... 2nd of january. probably.

i really hate falling ill simply because everytime i do so it makes me really difficult to do anything, and being productive. and that's why i cant even type anything here, my brain is too dead, as my fever is going high. its not until saturday i finally give in and go to the doctor's appointment to have a check up and finally get some meds that works.

speaking of healthcare.... i'm still thankful that my company actually gives us a standard government-issued insurance, eventhough it's almost barebone, being not in need of paying anything for the appointment and the meds is just a stellar service. and honestly, this should be the standard worldwide, looking at my friends in the US fighting really bad for their rights of medicine just pains me. especially when these insurance companies try to shift the blame and play victim. when their c-suite got assasinated.

let me remind you my dear readers no tears are shed on the death of multi-billion-dollar company c-suite. those peoples should be scared. for what they have done to the peoples that they by law supposed to protect, instead thousands of them were killed by refusal of drawing a line of signature on a piece of paper. they dont even need a red ink to write, they have it in their palms and hands already, red blood. a thousand hands are on them and those hands will pull every single one of them through hell if they ever try to act up again.

Moving forward ...

i intend to move the website to svelte. its not really because i want to make it a dynamic web app for phones and such. the website will remain best seen on a desktop. but because of how it works.

svelte uses component-style of website, which is how this website works to begin with. everything have a standalone wrapper and a window style. i'm kinda hoping by having a framework that is componental by design i can actually grow parts of my website one component at a time. beginning with the desk-top, and then everywhere else.

i'm proud of the design of my current website, don't get me wrong. as it looks exactly how i wanted it with the NeXT style windowing, and interface, i don't think i will change anything in fact. the style will remain the same, and the standalone screens will remain looking like java applets as the lord of internet has intended (I miss you Sun microsystem). the day of hotdesking may not be over, but the days when the network is the computer is strongly missed.

funnily enough i never actually used them, its just a sense of reminisce that one can't explain, i think its just fun to imagine having them in day to day life.

i suppose this should be it for the moment. thank you for reading this last blog from the normal html. i will see you again on the newly coded website next time. once i learn how to code in svelte properly. cheers to a good 2025!

Mit Alle liebe in der welt.
Amelia Yukihana Elfenlied
02 Jan, MMXXV